March 15, 2016

晚上哄貓貓睡覺,看他睡著了我就去客廳了。過了十幾分鐘聽見他在裡頭叫,爸爸,爸爸。一般他晚上睡著以後怎麼也弄不醒醒的。趕緊跑去他房間,他迷迷糊糊的,看我進來就又轉過身朝著窗戶去睡了。然後才過了幾秒鐘, 突然又轉過身來,完全清醒了似的,笑著問我,”你剛才跑到哪邊去了啊?” 那一下心都快化了。

February 23, 2016

貓貓今天又發脾氣,用手亂打打到阿婆臉上。我讓他Time Out,讓他靠牆站著訓了他半天,他兩眼紅紅的說,”爸爸我生氣了,我要走了。” 我把門打開說你走啊,他跑過去把門關上,說,”老鼠要進來了。” 我說你要是老打人大家都不喜歡你老鼠咬你也沒人管你。說了半天他終於去跟阿婆認錯了。吃了飯我沒象往常一樣陪他玩,躺在床上看書,他不知道哪裡翻了個腰包出來系到腰上,說,”爸爸你看我好不好看?” 我說爸爸還在生你的氣不理你。他在旁邊磨嘰了半天,然後把腰包掛在脖子上,用手指對我指指點點地說,”我也不理你了,老鼠來咬你也沒人管你。”然後騎著scooter走了。我咳了兩聲,他在客廳聽見了,跟阿婆說,”爸爸咳嗽了!”又跑進屋來說,”爸爸你咳嗽啦,你要喝水嗎?”我說不用了,他說,”你要喝水——!我去給你倒水。”就跑到客廳去倒水,再沒法生他的氣了。

貓貓語錄

香港最近陰天多,貓貓說,”每天打開門,貓貓一看,哦,沒有星星!”

去南京,飛機快降落的時候,貓貓說,“爸爸,你保護我。“

回到香港到晚上,我抱貓貓去洗澡他不願意,我跟他說你今天坐了飛機特別髒所以要洗澡。他說,”那個好的飛機不髒,他們擦得特別乾淨。”

晚上給貓貓講故事,他說,”貓貓看見一個小的月亮,就生氣了,貓貓看見一個大的月亮,就笑了。”

貓貓指著媽媽的板凳說,”媽媽,我要坐這個。” 媽媽說,”那你應該跟媽媽說什麼?” 貓貓說,”媽媽快起來!”

January 31, 2016

On weekends I have two choices for coffee: a chic Espresso Royale with black fixtures except for a red sofa by the window, or a dingy barista cafe which brews drip Yirgacheffe that’s inspired by rainy afternoons (it opens at 12pm and closes before dark). It’s almost a cliche then that the Americano at the Espresso Royale tastes marginally better than tap water filtered through charcoal and the barista cafe sits in a dump, a hardware store on the left and a meat market to the right, on a back street where most of the buildings face away, probably to avoid the sight of the Plastic wraps and cigarrete butts, profusely littered around backdoors covered by so many “No Smoking” signs it feels like a raging red revolution. When I leave for the Espresso Royale in the morning I generally offer to take Maomao along, usually he will come for the coconut milk, blueberry yogurt or car magazines but today he said he didn’t want to cause it was too cold outside (it is a good 10 degree warmer than last Sunday). So I found myself sitting by the window for an hour, not taking the rare opportunity though to read a book (it’s impossible with Maomao in tow) but contemplating idly how a two-and-half year old processes cause-effect analyses and strings coherent words to match them.

After lunch he slept for two and a half hour straight, probably still recovering from the hiking yesterday. During that time I took a nap myself, searched and found the particular edition of the Holderlin collection online, downloaded it, flipped through it, enormously satisfied, loaded it onto my kindle, and eagerly waited to read it tonight after Maomao sleeps (which will probably be well after 10pm since he slept so much in the afternoon). What’s more amazing though was I managed to tear myself away again around 5pm, offering to take him outside for a late-afternoon coffee run at the precise moment when I knew he would say no: as he was tearing ferociously at a foil wrap of a pack of ginger biscuits. So I came to the barista cafe, listened to some nocturne, read a few pages of Holderlin and littered a few cigarette butts of my own, and called it a particularly Lucky Strike.

January 03, 2016

香港最近大多陰天,早晨開始一直下小雨。下午三點雨停了。抱貓貓出門去爬柏架山道,想讓他聽聽溪水的聲音,剛下過雨水勢應該比平時大吧。他還是一步也不肯走,說,”我一步也走不動”。走到山腳下水渠邊的時候又開始有些小雨。指給他看樹葉上的雨珠,輕輕一碰就掉落下來,貓貓高興得哈哈大笑。能聽到樹林裡的鳥叫。貓貓問這是什麼?我說是烏鴉叫。貓貓說,烏鴉喜歡貓貓。心裡再想這麼簡單就能讓他這麼開心的時候還有多少?今年可能要忙了,總不能一直這麼閑。莫名其妙地覺得有點虧欠貓貓,閑的時候也沒有一直陪著他,有時候一打遊戲一晚上就過了。即使跟他在一起也都是瞎胡鬧地玩,沒有很用心地教他什麼。怎樣教他跟人相處?完全沒概念。

December 20, 2015

最近週末早晨都會帶貓貓去喝咖啡,給他點杯牛奶,他把杯子端到靠窗的沙發座上,然後跑去放雜誌的架子,總是拿同一本跑車的雜誌回來,爬上沙發煞有介事地看,過會又溜下來抱著紙杯又爬上去。然後最喜歡拿紙擦嘴,然後拿到腳踩開的垃圾桶去扔,一趟一趟的。也不知道他怎麼學會的。在咖啡館呆上半個多小時,等他把牛奶喝完,他會自己去把杯子扔在垃圾桶裡把雜誌也放回原位,然後就帶他去playground。

November 20, 2015

貓貓從兩歲生日以後,幾乎每隔一兩個禮拜就發燒一次。今天幼稚園阿姨打電話到辦公室,說他眼睛發炎充血還不停地分泌綠色的東西。心急火燎地跑回來帶他去看樓下的診所,好在看起來不是想像的那麼嚴重。香港醫生很傲慢,bedside manner很差,想給貓貓查下血看看為什麼總是不斷生病,跟醫生要求他們總是很dismissive。他自己倒是渾然不知,發燒還是淘得不得了。

September 04, 2015

8月28日
2:30pm 開始發燒,38.5,去兒童醫院,診斷是皰疹
5:00pm 回家吃了蒲地藍,口腔噴霧,美林布洛芬退燒藥,溫度降低到正常
8:00-10:00pm 華西附二院看病,開了羚羊角和咽喉清,做了手口足檢查
11:00pm 溫度上升,吃了美林布洛芬退燒藥2.5ml

8月29日
00:30am 溫度維持39.5左右,去華西附二院
2:00am 吃泰諾退燒藥1.5ml,擦降燒滾珠,一小時內溫度仍在38.8左右
3:40am 溫度降到38.5左右,回家
4:00-7:00am 每40分鐘左右測一次體溫,在37.6左右
9:30-中午 溫度保持在36.7左右,精神狀態很好
1:30pm 溫度再升到39.0左右,吃泰諾退燒藥1.5ml
2:00pm 吃蒲地藍10ml
4:00-5:30pm 睡覺,溫度37.2左右
5:30-7:30pm 溫度仍在38.0以下,精神狀態很好,但是7:00pm以後手心冰冷
8:00pm 吃蒲地藍,咽喉清各10ml。溫度開始上升
9:30pm 溫度上升到39.2左右,吃泰諾退燒藥1.5ml
10:15pm 溫度降到37.6,但是哭鬧,不睡覺

9月3日
1:15am 頭天晚上8點開始低燒,淩晨一點左右到39.3,吃泰諾退燒藥3ml
2:20-5:00am 從38.4燒到39.7
6:00am 到和睦家,吃美林布洛芬6.5ml,查血,診斷病毒性咽炎
11:00am 燒到39.7,吃泰諾6.5ml,氨溴特羅7.5ml
12:45pm 溫度降到37.8
4:00pm 溫度上升到39.2,吃美林布洛芬6.5ml

9月4日
0:00am 溫度38.9,吃泰諾6.5ml
6:30am 吃氨溴特羅7.5ml